daphne

une saison en enfer, rimbaud

2009-11-08T01:28:56Z

Et c'est encore la vie ! - Si la damnation est éternelle ! Un homme qui veut se mutiler est bien damné, n'est-ce pas ? Je me crois en enfer, donc j'y suis. C'est l'exécution du catéchisme. Je suis esclave de mon baptême. Parents, vous avez fait mon malheur et vous avez fait le vôtre. Pauvre innocent ! - L'enfer ne peut attaquer les païens. - C'est la vie encore ! Plus tard, les délices de la damnation seront plus profondes. Un crime, vite, que je tombe au néant, de par la loi humaine.

Tais-toi, mais tais-toi !... C'est la honte, le reproche, ici : Satan qui dit que le feu est ignoble, que ma colère est affreusement sotte. - Assez !... Des erreurs qu'on me souffle, magies, parfums faux, musiques puériles. - Et dire que je tiens la vérité, que je vois la justice : j'ai un jugement sain et arrêté, je suis prêt pour la perfection... Orgueil. - La peau de ma tête se dessèche. Pitié ! Seigneur, j'ai peur. J'ai soif, si soif ! Ah ! l'enfance, l'herbe, la pluie, le lac sur les pierres, le clair de lune quand le clocher sonnait douze... le diable est au clocher, à cette heure. Marie ! Sainte-Vierge !... - Horreur de ma bêtise.

ruhmes @ 2009-11-08T08:59:00

2009-11-08T01:10:20Z

sometimes people go crazy in an instant, and theyre lucky, cause they pretty cease to care about anything about everything in an instant too.

sometimes people feel themselves losing the so called cohesive treads of sanity bit by bit, so excruciatingly slow that it feels like you've got your nails up in the shredder - in slow motion.

what do you do about not being able to do anything about it?
so you might cry, scream, act like a nutcase but what can you do really?

i really just want to sleep and never wake up.

ruhmes @ 2009-11-01T03:54:00

2009-10-31T20:05:52Z

if in 3 days i havent

1. died from pain
2. disappeared from the lack of nutrients ingested
3. killed myself to get away from the pain

please congratulate me. then bring me out for a good meal.
but if in 3 days you see me

1. wasting away from lack of nutrients ingested
2. dying from pain
3. about to kill myself to get away from the pain

FORCE ME TO SEE A DENTIST (or donate to the "exorbitant wisdom tooth extraction fee" fund)
if you happen to be religious/have special powerz pray for me. or do the dance. or cast a spell on me plztankzbubye

ruhmes @ 2009-10-28T00:24:00

2009-10-27T16:30:28Z

False face must hide what the false heart doth know.

ruhmes @ 2009-10-09T02:28:00

2009-10-08T18:33:45Z

ruhmes @ 2009-10-05T06:59:00

2009-10-04T22:59:12Z

i am damn irritated why cant ther be like, 30 hours in a day or so damnit! I NEED MORE TIME.

ruhmes @ 2009-10-04T23:39:00

2009-10-04T15:45:10Z

viktor & rolf and lanvin = yummy!!

ruhmes @ 2009-10-04T23:19:00

2009-10-04T15:24:40Z

HAHA jpg s/s mega fail.

ruhmes @ 2009-09-30T20:20:00

2009-09-30T12:31:13Z

counter-intuitive is the new word. because special relativity (einstein's) is all about being counter-intuitive and he shows that just because you wouldnt think of it normally doesnt mean it cannot be true and i think that dear boy might have hit paydirt because dont we all behave counter-intuitively sometimes too and therefore it doesnt mean that we are all screwy and wrong and i am not bothering with punctuation anymore because that is how my brain is working and everything is flowing shifting around and out of my head like a wet sponge and im tired im so tired and i hate science but its true i do want to be a renaisssance wo(man) too but i feel like im caught in a parallel dimension where little makes sense or maybe in a time warp where it takes me 2039423098x the normal comprehension time to understand a single theory and hey i am incorporating physics theories arent i though albeit i believe not in the way that my lecturer would be proud of and ijustwantthistoendendendendend og omg omg omg DIE DIE DIE.

ruhmes @ 2009-09-22T02:27:00

2009-09-21T18:31:51Z

sick and coughing blood, funnnnn.

the aliens

2009-09-06T09:30:14Z

you may not believe it
but there are people
who go through life with
very little
friction of distress.
they dress well, sleep well.
they are contented with
their family
life.
they are undisturbed
and often feel
very good.
and when they die
it is an easy death, usually in their
sleep.

you may not believe
it
but such people do
exist.

but i am not one of
them.
oh no, I am not one of them,
I am not even near
to being
one of
them.
but they
are there

and I am
here.

ruhmes @ 2009-06-08T23:26:00

2009-06-08T15:26:05Z

walking. not exactly the time to feel depressed about a variety of so-called ailments in my sad, pathetic existence. i would be better off dreaming about being a worm.

ruhmes @ 2009-06-08T02:18:00

2009-06-07T18:18:33Z

testing

ruhmes @ 2009-05-28T10:59:00

2009-05-28T02:59:26Z

Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day
To the last syllable of recorded time,
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life's but a walking shadow, a poor player
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage
And then is heard no more: it is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.

ruhmes @ 2009-05-26T17:55:00

2009-05-26T09:55:42Z

Mousie's come home

Wanted:

2009-05-25T14:48:46Z

Help from people who've been to europe.

ruhmes @ 2009-05-24T23:09:00

2009-05-24T15:09:49Z

R.I.P.

ruhmes @ 2009-04-13T01:55:00

2009-04-12T18:55:04Z

Heart is heavy.

ruhmes @ 2009-03-27T23:20:00

2009-03-27T15:19:19Z

ruhmes @ 2009-03-21T23:30:00

2009-03-21T16:00:06Z

HI,
I really need the cash, so please go to stardust's website AND HELP ME WIN (at least, for all 10% of it)

my name is DAPHNE BOEY, fyi.
DONT VOTE WRONGLY. haha.

2 lines from an adrienne rich poem running in my head.

2009-03-19T19:56:49Z

my ignorance of you amazes me
now that I watch you

mind and heart, charles bukowski

2009-03-17T16:34:41Z

unaccountably we are alone
forever alone
and it was meant to be
that way,
it was never meant
to be any other way–
and when the death struggle
begins
the last thing I wish to see
is
a ring of human faces
hovering over me–
better just my old friends,
the walls of my self,
let only them be there.

I have been alone but seldom
lonely.
I have satisfied my thirst
at the well
of my self
and that wine was good,
the best I ever had,
and tonight
sitting
staring into the dark
I now finally understand
the dark and the
light and everything
in between.

peace of mind and heart
arrives
when we accept what
is:
having been
born into this
strange life
we must accept
the wasted gamble of our
days
and take some satisfaction in
the pleasure of
leaving it all
behind.

cry not for me.

grieve not for me.

read
what I’ve written
then
forget it
all.

drink from the well
of your self
and begin
again.

ruhmes @ 2009-03-15T21:11:00

2009-03-15T13:11:48Z

with me, the present is forever, and forever is always shifting, flowing, melting. this second is Life. and when it is gone it is dead. but you can't
start over with each
new second. you have to judge by what is
dead.
it's like quicksand...hopeless from the start.
a story, a picture,
can renew
sensation a little, but not enough,
not enough. nothing is real except the present, and already, i feel the weight of centuries smothering me.

ruhmes @ 2009-03-15T02:53:00

2009-03-14T18:51:14Z

bit of a drag ain't it?

ruhmes @ 2009-03-11T00:51:00

2009-03-10T16:49:10Z

can't do much more